left you and return back to your side,

there is a person in this world that will love you.

that love without you realising will come looking into your heart and enter into your life.

if that moment comes,

after losing it and finding it back

i want to spend the rest of my life together with you

Cause i have prayed for something that i thought would never come true

a lost cause but

with Him, everything will and can come true if it is in His plan..

it’s amazing how He works in US and in US He has given US

such an amazing journey..

thank God for it and answering my prayers

for you are the answers to my prayers..(:

so anyone out there that is losing faith..have faith in Him..

cause He has a plan for everyone..it might look bleak for now or hard at the moment but

believe me..i was in shit and He saved me and helped me thru in the weirdest but looking up..

the way He mold me to who i am today..(:

(:..

this has always kept me believing in LOVE

¹If I speak in the tongues^[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,^[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

 ⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

 ⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

 ¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love

1 Corinthians 13 (New International Version)

God loves US and LOVE Him with all your heart, soul and mind..Amen

Is everything we chase just superficial and at face value? Is our pride so important that we lose track of what He up there wants us to do and become. Which is to dedicate our whole heart,soul and mind to Him. What’s with the tattoos, piercings, cool factor, GPAs, hot chicks and lastly what’s with the pride? When we all face God, he is not gonna look at your GPA score, how we look or whatever material gains we got in this Earth. Yes, big MNCs and companies will want to hire high or great GPA scores and so on so forth. But is that all you chase for and dream of. Losing sight of Him. Without Him, your life is no life at all.

oops..it’s been in my draft for months..haha..(:

summer is ending..tts a bummer but glad alot of good things happen during this long hols…

no more being emo-ly sad

no more being dropped by the national team

no more being single for a long long time i hope(haha!)

no more regrets

no more troubles

just filled with happiness,joy, love and great great memories to come and be made(:

just really happy and loved with God, my family, loved ones and great friends..(:..

pray to God that He has a great plan installed for me and hand everything and my wonderful family and frens into His Almighty’s Hands..Love U Lord

Amen

a girl’s heart i broke

is she really gone

the door closed forever

wish time could be turned back

so i could make things right

does love conquer all

let’s dance under the moonlight

as together we are in love

now i know

why didnt i ask

uningsay ouldway ouyay ebay ymay irlfriendgay?

regret

lost

hurt

tears

you

will be in me forever

ps: i love u

Many people are driven by guilt. Many people are driven by resentment and anger. Many people are driven by fear. Many people are driven by materialism. Many people are driven by the need for approval. Are you one of that people that are driven by all these?

I am one of those people and have come to realise how wrong the path it can go to….where somewhere God would never want us to be…and that is darkness and lonliness….hurt and confused…lost and unforgiven…

Nothing really matters more than knowing God’s purposes for my life, and nothing can compensate for not  knowing them- not success, wealth, fame, or pleasure. Without a purpose, life is motion without meaning, activity without direction, and events without reason. Without a purpose, life is trivial petty, and pointless.

What drives me is knowing God is in my life and heart.
Having a relationship with Him is never boring, never confusing, just pure and awasome.

Taking a break from my burning midnight oil in SMU library and the time is 0329hrs of 20th november. Never felt so happy studying and while having a break cum quiet time with Him makes me feel His presence. The peace He has given me. 

Lord, i pray that you continue to work in me and my loved ones, friends and those who have not gotten to know you for you are an awesome God that reigns in this World. Blessed them and protect them for You are the Almighty God. Thank you Lord  for so many things, constant love, happiness, some stress to mold me and obstacles to make me stronger. Lord, my life is yours and my purpose is for You. Amen.

We werent put on earth to be remembered. We were put here to prepare for eternity.

Hope is as essential to our life as air and water. We need Hope to Cope. We need Love to Live(:

People who are feeling down, stressed and rejected, God is always here for u and for me.

It’s not about me; it’s about God. 

Everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him. Colossians 1:16

In spite of all the things around me, how can i remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?

Cause without Him, i would not have become who i am, what i have and the love i receive. HE is always supporting me and carrying me through the darkness and i live for Him. Show me the way Lord.

Btw exams are around the corner, i’ve been mugging rather “diligently” in the school library and luckily for me i have five great friends, Derek, Enjian, Ben, Minru and lastly sweet Caroline. We have become a close knit group, who cares if we are not cool and some might think we are loud, crazy and maybe uncool. But nonetheless, we have bonded and have really stuck with one another for this first term and seven more terms to go; ok minru would be five more. SMU is crazily stressful and mugger however with these five friends, SMU is fun, chill, encouraging and it’s made SMU the best school to be in. Cant imagine SMU without them.(: I really want to thank God for them and know that God has brought six of us together to keep each other going and to remind ourselves that He is always looking after us.

Without rugby in my life, it’s hard to not play what i love but God has punished me for what i have done. It’s really time for me to grow up and mature in Rugby. I play for HIM and all my glory is for him, and when i started playing for myself and for winning, i lost it and became someone He did not condone and he made me realise it. SO i’m really thankful for his reminder and his punishment. I would work harder and play harder for HIM for he has given me this talent. Oh ya, he provides in the most subtle way, with the suspension from SMU, SRU wanted to suspend me which is nonsense but God provided me with a lawyer, an old acs boy, rather cool ah, but thanks Johnny for helping me appeal and just handing all to HIM to take care of this SRU nonsense.

So God is always there and he has and is in my heart. Need to constantly pray and talk to him and not forget to listen to him. Cause we love to ask ask ask but when did we listen to what he has gotta say to us. SO listen and do what he wants. Love u Lord and my life is yours and thank you for being with me and pray that you bless my five great friends and bring us through this exams”(:

A life devoted to things is a dead life, a stump; a God-shaped life is a fllourishing tree.

Dear Lord,
Broken heart, broken spirit, broken relationship, broken me.
Mend my heart, soul and mind lord.
Lead me and bring me to become what you want of me.
For i am torn and in need.
For only you know what’s best for me.
Pray for my loved ones, friends and those who i have offended or hurt.
Forgive me.
Believe in me.
Give me strength, wisdom and love.
For i hand my life into your hands and i miss you.
In your holy name, Amen

It’s been a while since i blogged…ages ago…

so many many things have happen to me…ups and downs…happy and sad….tears of joy and lost….in sim now in SMU…attach but now single….HOWEVER ALL IS FINE UNTIL

NOW, i am just feeling lost and confuse…the only passion and love i thought would never betray me and never forsake me has forsaken me….My RUGBY….dropped from the World Cup Qualifiers Singapore team BECAUSE OF “LACK OF FITNESS AND FOCUS”, said by IAN BREMNER..really IAN?…I am Bryan Ng…I am the fittest in the team and i am so passionate and focus in rugby that i did really stupid and crazy stuff just so to help scc win the U23 and smu win the SUNIG 7’s…i also have been going down for almost all the trainings the past few weeks even with school work and modelling work overwhelming me…and to add on..i still gym every morning with phil and hairul just to become stronger and faster….i know i might have A ALLEGATION OF ME SKIVING FOR ONE TRAINING but that’s for 15’s and that is so long ago….oh pls….

I REALLY LOVE RUGBYand to be dropped for those two invalid reasons SUCKS…it broke my heart and i broke down…tears just came down my fucking eyes when i received the bad news from ian and his riduculous reasons for dropping me in SMU library and i just literally broke down and felt like shit…rugby has nv been political and all…somewhere i can do wad i do best and it is to score and play with the teammates i love and have so much respect for…i miss seagames and that team is going up to the world cup qualifiers..not as strong but it’s just knowing that i am not going up with them; helping them share the burden SUCKS…and i am sorry to not make it up with all of you…sorry uncle rong sorry hairul sorry to all of you…i am just so lost now…and i really am torn…….

God save me i pray…and show me the way..for i am lost and torn by Rugby…